To brighten you up I rec you to read Sunshine. I said it many times and I repeat again: in my opinion, Shadowscast writes the best Xander in the history of fandom. I read the first three lines from Sunshine

Two tunnels diverged in a grimy subway.
And I, I don’t know which one the demon went down.
Well, shit.
- Xander Harris, with props to Robert Frost

and I was totally immersed in the story. And - in the Xander she depicts.